A mother’s experience

Being a first time mom wether you planned a pregnancy or didn’t you never expect such tremendous pain to be gone the moment your baby is in your arms. Now no it doesn’t just completely take away your pain but for that first moment of holding your newborn it’s the love that’s blinding you from what the hell just happened. From personal experience I was only 18 when I got pregnant and let me tell you it most definitely was not planned. I was an emotional wreck when I found out and it didn’t hit me until about 7 months. 7 months is when my nesting hit and reality hit that I was going to have a baby in just a couple months. I was very sick my whole pregnancy between lupus and rheumatoid arthritis and not being able to go in remission my whole pregnancy. As horrifying and overwhelmed that made me I knew I had to keep it together for my baby. Eventually the pain was numbed from hurting all the time but what kept me going was knowing I was gonna have my little chunk soon. My experience was okay at first and then it was horrific. What all went down during birth will be in my next post but for now I hope everyone has a good rest of there day and weekend.